“We did a Life Clearing Session a little over 2 weeks ago where we focused on my relationships. I made a list of the issues that have come up and sabotaged my last relationships.”
(Explanation from Antje: In a Life Clearing Session we remove all trauma, patterns, issues, behaviors from the client’s energy field AND from the energy fields of all mentioned partners. Thus, everyone experiences healing.)
“Immediately after the treatment I had a strong feeling of happiness and the feeling of being full inside. This “open-heart” feeling lasted for several days and hasn’t completely disappeared yet. Shortly after the treatment, one of my ex-boyfriends wrote to me to say that he was thinking about me and whether I was still interested in a relationship. I immediately realized that this was a detox reaction and I was able to explain to him without any difficulty that I wasn’t interested and that Mercury retrograde was bringing up his missing me. In the relationship he was very lecturing and dominant and discussed and questioned everything I said. I wasn’t good at saying no anyway because I was afraid of being alone.
In the session, we have cleared out some past lives in which bondage arose. Since then, I’ve noticed how my behavior has changed and I say no clearly without the fear of being rejected for it. My ex-boyfriend understood and accepted it immediately and was very respectful. The feeling of having to fight in relationships and with men that I always had is completely gone. I can assert myself in a clear and peaceful way without having to justify myself for hours on end. I also find it easier to approach strangers in everyday life and put down people pleasing.
But now comes the point that brought tears of joy to my face.
I was with my first boyfriend for 2 years, who suffered from very severe depression and was unable to appreciate all the effort and sacrifice I gave for him. He regularly humiliated me and devalued everything that was important to me. When it got to the point where he completely ignored me due to his mental illness and it was clear that I was about to break under the burden, I ended the relationship. That was 1.5 years ago now.
Yesterday he called me and we spoke on the phone for 4 hours. He told me that he could suddenly see how he had treated me and that he was extremely sorry for this disrespect. He told me all the situations that we had experienced together from the perspective that I felt at the time and was spot on with how I felt. He wanted to hear all my views, asked questions and apologized. He took responsibility and showed me an incredible amount of appreciation for how I was there for him and for which he never thanked me. We both cried a lot and had an emotional closeness that had never been there before. It’s like he’s turned 180 degrees. He is undergoing therapy with the aim of taking responsibility for his depression and no longer handing it over to a partner whom he is harming. I was able to talk to him freely without any insecurity or fear of rejection and he was able to do the same.
He told me everything I had wanted so much in the relationship. Honest communication, appreciation and personal responsibility for personal growth. He told me that he still has feelings for me and I was able to tell him that we are not at the point where we can jump back into the relationship. That it would take more development and that was easy for me. He was super understanding and agreed to it. We both hung up very happily and stay in touch. He said “it’s as if the familiarity from back then is still there, but we’re on a completely different level as people”. And he wants to continue this development to be able to appreciate and really see me. He couldn’t back then and now all the memories and insights that were missing back then are coming back.
I don’t feel like I want to be in the relationship now. I feel more like I’m free and that I can stand up for myself.
In addition, I suddenly see the patterns in which he mirrors my father, which I never saw before. My father told me that he was incredibly disappointed in me and I was able to leave this projection with him. I realized that God is the source of love and that parents are channels that can flow in different ways. And that there are other channels through which love can flow. For example, you and the Angels and friendships in which I can be myself. Nature is also part of this. I decided to keep my distance from my father for the time being and to stop trying to change and heal him so that he would treat me right. I did that with all my partners. The fact that I recognized this and let go gives me a feeling of freedom and inner peace and abundance that I never had before. I am infinitely grateful.“
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